Destiny Casey: And I Can't Change

Destiny Casey, an exuberant teen, reverberates her excitement about moving on from high school and into a more hopeful reality. Together, we talked about how she tries to maintain happiness and the expectations the world places onto her existence. As the summer ends, she tries to shed her old perceptions of the past and enter life with assurance and positivity.

Residing in Mansfield, Texas, Casey stands as a graduating senior ready to take on the world and begin anew. 

Interviewer: How do you feel about graduation?

Destiny: I don’t really care. Imma just go, walk the stage, take pictures with the few people I like at my school, and go home. I was nervous because it’s gonna be so different this year and I don’t know what to expect. [Attention] makes me very anxious- everything’s going to be on you.

Interviewer: Are you shy? 

Destiny: Very shy. They’re gonna be like, ‘She graduated?’ In situations, you can tell I’m anxious. One time, I was in the gas station, and it was all these people coming in and I was just pantsing around. I feel like everybody points out all these things about me. 

Interviewer: When people call you beautiful does that make you more self conscious? 

Destiny: It’s really awkward and I’m like ‘I don’t know what you’re talking about.’ Like thanks? Sometimes [my mom] will be like, 'My daughter’s so beautiful she can get any man she wants.’

Interviewer: Do you?

Destiny: Get any man I want? No. I don't get any man I want because I’m too awkward. I’m very ADHD, I’m screaming a lot and when guys talk to me they think I’m so weird.

Interviewer: Does being bisexual make you feel inferior? When did you know?

Destiny:  It was in Kindergarten. We were playing house- she was mom [and] I was a kid. We’re just sitting there and she was like, ‘So now mom has to give you goodnight kisses.’ And then she started making out with me and I was like this is so fun. I didn’t know it was a problem. I was really late on a lot of stuff- sexuality, sex, and people being blatantly racist to me I didn’t know they were being racist. 

Interviewer: How does the acknowledgement of your queerness impact your mental health? 

Destiny: I’m way better than I was. I used to hate myself. I was not okay with how I was [and] I wished I was a different person. I didn’t want to be myself, but I am who I am and I can’t change that. 

Interviewer: How would you describe that season of your life? Was there self loathing?

Destiny: I always thought there was something wrong with me. [I was picky with] every detail about myself. I’m okay with who I am now and I can’t change.

Interviewer: What was it like growing up black in school? 

Destiny: Kids would always belittle me and I would ask my mom, ‘Why is my hair curly? Why can’t it be straight?’ She would always try to talk to me about loving yourself because at a young age people would bully me for having curly hair. 

Interviewer: What makes you happy now?

Destiny: Weed [and] the people I have in my life.